"I won't grow up"

The thought of getting older (from a child's--well, my-- point of view):

When I was young I always imagined that when I reached the wonderful self-fulfilling age of eighteen, I would become an adult.
And yes, when I do reach that age, I will be an adult.
But I won't feel like one.

I have realized that the day I've always been waiting for will never come. The day when I can be as arrogant and obnoxious as I want and still get away with it. The day when I'll be sure about everything and will have complete control over my life and there will be no more insecurities and I will be the bravest person on the planet. The day when I'll wake up and say, 'Whoo-hoo! I'm a grown-up!'

Sometimes I feel like I am still five years old. Sure, I may be smarter and taller and uglier (*cough* somewhat partial sarcasm *cough*) than when I was five, but I don't feel that way.

Maybe it's because the changes happen so slowly that you don't notice them. It's not like one night your four-year-old self falls asleep while snuggling a stuffed bear and then wakes up, puts on a tie and a suit, and goes to work in a cubicle in downtown Manhattan.

Our bodies change and our minds change, but the super sub-conscious doesn't notice all the change going all around it because it's stuck in its little hobbit-hole. So by the time we're adults the super sub-conscious suddenly wakes up, takes a peek outside, and says, "What just happened here?!"

And it's sad and upset that it missed the train ride. And it's sad and upset that life is still boring and a bit scary and those insecurities are still there and there is still so little control and what did you say about being brave?

But that's okay, because there are a lot of people who missed the train, too.

The last thing I have to say? Peter Pan, you were wrong. You were so, so wrong.
Growing up? Pshah. There's no such thing.

Some Writing Quotes to Write By (or simply be interested in)

It really is magic when a writer pours herself into her writing. It seems to make the writing more relatable, more human. Sounds easy, right? After all, don't we humans love to talk about ourselves? No, not easy. Not easy at all. It's a wonder how hard it is to bring life to writing: 

There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed. 

-Ernest Hemingway

One of my favorite authors is Neil Gaiman, who wrote American Gods, Coraline, Anansi Boys, and The Graveyard Book. As a full time author, he knows how much of a pain writing a book can be. But he also knows the magic that strikes while writing a novel (well, by halfway through writing a book, the magic evaporates a little bit): 

This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until it's done. It's that easy, and that hard. 

-Neil Gaiman

When writing a novel, that's pretty much entirely what life turns into: 'House burned down. Car stolen. Cat exploded. Did 1500 easy words, so all in all it was a pretty good day'. 

-Neil Gaiman

I don't know whether I should be proud of this, or slightly afraid:

So what? All writers are lunatics!

–Cornelia Funke, Inkspell 

Some quotes from Ray Bradbury, the master of science fiction and and one of my idols. (I love how he can take his feelings, turn them into words, and make his writings some of the most powerful novels on the planet). 

Some hear voices when no one is there. Some are called mad and locked in a room where they stare at the walls all day. Others are called 'writers', and they do pretty much the same thing.
    -Ray Bradbury

You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you."

    –Ray Bradbury